Venting + humor

[True_Blue_Flare]

Recently got banned.

This ban feels unbearable. Makes me want to throw myself in front of a Boeing 747. How would I get up there? Uhhhh a second Boeing 747.

Other servers are good but they don't scratch the same itch.

Guh

[GARGATHUGANOKSREVENG]

Banned from goonstation? Download the code and host it yourself privately if you wanna mess with game mechanics, I did that when I accidentally got myself permabanned for a month or so.

+ you could host it publicly with portforwarding to play with friends but I've always been too lazy for that step

[True_Blue_Flare]

Banned from goonstation? Download the code and host it yourself privately if you wanna mess with game mechanics, I did that when I accidentally got myself permabanned for a month or so.

+ you could host it publicly with portforwarding to play with friends but I've always been too lazy for that step

Doesn't hit the same without people everywhere and stuff happening nonstop

[GARGATHUGANOKSREVENG]

Not much you can do then. The admins probably don't want this kind of dependent behavior though. You should probably take a break from ss13 and occupy yourself with something else for a few months.

[Chasu]

I'm not qualified to give mental health advice. 
Next to nobody here is.
Nobody is obligated to let you in their server either.
Take this in the kindest way possible.

If your train of thought from "no space" to "I want to kill myself" is that short, the ban itself is not the problem.
I read your previous forum bio, (I did not screenshot it, feel free to correct me if I got things wrong) and it went something along the lines of:
"[...] This game is what I use to occupy the 16 hours of free time I have every day.
[ Being banned from it ] sounds like the perfect setup for me not to survive the next 30 days."

Clearly, you have a problem. I can only add to what's been said before:

Go outside. Get a grip on reality. Seriously. It's just a game.
I'd tell you to stop playing for a while, but it's not like you can; The hardest part has luckily already been handled!
Go for a walk (or for a run, physical activity can really help).
Do something that fulfills you. You seem to have drawn your discord profile picture yourself, so maybe draw!
Take the time to reflect on why you've been spending 10+ hours daily on this game. Become a bit more emotionally mature.

TL;DR:
Touch grass.

[Frank_Stein]

16 hours of free time I have every day

If only we could all be so lucky

For real, if you've got regularly got 16 hours of free time, ENJOY IT TO THE FULLEST

Find a hobby. Practice a skill. Start a project. Smell a flower. Kiss a frog. World's your oyster