WHY DOES IT EVEN MATTER MAN

[Grumpchkin]

This does sound like a "mid-spaceman-life-crisis", I'd suggest trying a completely new role or trying to find fun things that are happening. Look for silly stuff like if a Chaplain is starting a cult or something.

Or you could take a break, I've played too much before and got to a point where a 2 week break was necessary to not get completely sick of it.