Feedback what can I even do?

[True_Blue_Flare]

I've been banned for a few months now. I've tried appealing, giving feedback, receiving feedback, taking some time, getting my shit together IRL, appealing again, and asking for some clarification on something I was unsure about and maybe a reevaluation of a previous appeal. I'm trying here, I really am. I'm not trying to be a disrespectful shitter on purpose, believe it or not I really am trying to handle this appropriately and communicate respectfully, but I've just been getting dismissed and shut down at every turn. Like, what do you even want from me at this point? What can I even do? Like, I really just want to set things right and be able to get back to playing stupid characters and fucking with chems and stuff again.