Concerning Zamujasa / Xkeeper

[Tarmunora]

Let me preface by saying that I don't think Zamujasa and I ever partiularly got along well. We did not vibe, and after some early butting of heads a number of years ago, I started actively making an effort to reduce/avoid conflict, because the majority of the time, Zamu was making good contributions, and good adminning. So I did my best to maintain professional courtesy, weathered her various slights and snipes, and for the most part kept myself out of the constant arguments Zamu was always starting with other admins, and hoped that things would get better. That when Zamu said things along the lines of "I know that \[these arguments are\]/I'm a problem" and "I'm sorry, and I'm working on getting better" that she meant it. But things never got better. Zamujasa's apologies started ringing hollow as she went on the same self-righteous crusades against anyone she vaguely disagreed with, throwing stuff from years ago in peoples' faces that they thought were resolved, and then saying "sorry I'll do better" after another admin leaves the server temporarily over the verbal abuse. This didn't change until after her final blow-up where Zamujasa took the mask off and said outright that she would never change, and that our only options were to put up with her abuse or deadmin her.

So we did. And while I'm disappointed that it ended in anger and unhappiness instead of reconciliation and personal growth; by her own words, she didn't leave us any other viable choice.