Complaint Banned when I should have just been told to knock it off

[squirrel slapper]

You received rule 4 warnings on the following dates: October 10th, October 18th, October 19th, October 25th, November 10th, December 21st, and finally January 8th. This does not include your repeated warnings for RP violations (October 10th, November 10th, January 8th, January 16th(twice), and January 17th(twice)) and one note for general griefing unrelated to the RP rules on December 21st. This is a list of things from the administrator notes attached to your byond username/ckey. Some of these listed warnings were bans, of course, but non-permanent bans are something we use so you can really consider your rules violations and hopefully do better.

But you've received a permanent ban because none of that worked.

I am legitimately concerned that someone else's notes are being mixed in with mine, or that normal interactions I've had with admins are being being seen as "incidents" without anyone actually checking what happened. That is a ludicrous amount of R4 warnings and RP violations that I have almost no memory of. What steps can I take to find out the details of each one? How can I somehow see what you see?

Those rule 4 violations on December 21st and January 8th cannot be real. They seriously can't. If they were real, I would not be here contesting the ban because it would be extremely clear to me why I was banned. What do the notes say I actually did on those dates? What did I say that I wasn't supposed to?

And I can actually remember what happened on January 17th, and it sure as hell wasn't "two seperate warnings for RP violations". It was a normal interaction with an admin where they asked me "what's with the wordless killings this round? Why didn't you ever escalate?", I realised what I had just done - on that one occasion at the very end I got tunnel-vision and fixated too hard on sneaking onto the escape shuttle with a cloaking device and then throwing grenades without giving anyone time to stop me - but was still confused as on every other occasion that round I had escalated perfectly. I informed them of this and they checked the logs and realised I was right. We both agreed that I should've done better on the shuttle at the end, and then I resolved to do better. That's it. It was a nudge in the right direction after an inconsequential slip-up at the VERY END of an otherwise fine round. I kept playing after that round and it wasn't an issue. 

The only one of the supposed RP violation warning dates I can remember is January 17th, and January 17th was not a case of "two seperate warnings for RP violations". It was a TEXTBOOK case of an admin telling me to knock something off and me agreeing to knock it off, which I will always do, because there is no reason for me not to.