Goonhub
01-15-2024, 08:07 PM
For context, over a year ago I made a very stupid decision which lead to me getting banned, when I appealed for it the admin who banned me gave the stipulation that any further bans would have no chance of appeal, a few weeks later I got banned again for doing something stupid in the heat of the moment, not even a warning which I guess was understandable because I blurted out an explicitly banned word on the station intercom.
What is not understandable is how a few days ago, I decided to make an appeal to the ban despite this, knowing that there was a good chance I wouldn’t get unbanned but I felt the need to apologize for my mistakes and make an attempt anyways because I’ve spent the past year thinking back and reflecting on the mistakes I’ve made and trying to better myself as a person, I went out of my way to write a multi-paragraph appeal laying out every mistake I could recall making in my time here, what rules they broke and the explanations for why things happened the way they did as well as how I’ve learned and grown as a person.
I understand the decision taken to deny my appeal because I was told any further ban appeals would be denied way back then, what I don’t understand is how Tarmunora thought it was remotely okay to be so blunt in their denial (screenshot attached) and not even acknowledge anything I even said. when I look at this I see, tone wise, bluntly telling someone to fuck off. I wanted my last interaction with this place to at least be a respectful and understanding one, what I got instead what the internet equivalent of giving a heartfelt apology and getting punched in the gut in response.
I let myself be emotionally vulnerable when I poured my heart and soul into what I said, and I’m man enough to admit that I cried for a bit after getting shot down so hard. The very rules that I broke to get banned were put in place to make these servers a safe space, but even if I was unbanned I don’t think I’d actually come back now that I know admins are allowed to completely emotionally disregard people like that, if this is supposed to be a safe space then the admins should help facilitate that, because if they can just act like this then I don’t think it’s a very safe place at all.
I’ll always remember and cherish the tales of tomfoolery I have amassed in the short time I did play on this server, and I had fun with each and every person I played with. Before I go for good I want to just say i’m truly sorry to everyone I’ve upset and hurt with my actions, whether it be the things I said or me annoying people asking around for info (I will not lie, I have a problem where I feel the need to get responses/verification multiple times or from multiple people), and if any admin who has contact with them sees this, please tell Virvatuli I’m truly sorry about being such an ass, I’m not a bigoted or hateful person, just an impressionable foul mouthed idiot who doesn’t think before he acts.
I’ll be well and truly leaving this time, you folks will never see or hear from me again (unless any of you go to /tg/ station, there’s a microscopically slim chance I might be there)
Thank you for all the memories
And for the last time
Thank you for your time
What is not understandable is how a few days ago, I decided to make an appeal to the ban despite this, knowing that there was a good chance I wouldn’t get unbanned but I felt the need to apologize for my mistakes and make an attempt anyways because I’ve spent the past year thinking back and reflecting on the mistakes I’ve made and trying to better myself as a person, I went out of my way to write a multi-paragraph appeal laying out every mistake I could recall making in my time here, what rules they broke and the explanations for why things happened the way they did as well as how I’ve learned and grown as a person.
I understand the decision taken to deny my appeal because I was told any further ban appeals would be denied way back then, what I don’t understand is how Tarmunora thought it was remotely okay to be so blunt in their denial (screenshot attached) and not even acknowledge anything I even said. when I look at this I see, tone wise, bluntly telling someone to fuck off. I wanted my last interaction with this place to at least be a respectful and understanding one, what I got instead what the internet equivalent of giving a heartfelt apology and getting punched in the gut in response.
I let myself be emotionally vulnerable when I poured my heart and soul into what I said, and I’m man enough to admit that I cried for a bit after getting shot down so hard. The very rules that I broke to get banned were put in place to make these servers a safe space, but even if I was unbanned I don’t think I’d actually come back now that I know admins are allowed to completely emotionally disregard people like that, if this is supposed to be a safe space then the admins should help facilitate that, because if they can just act like this then I don’t think it’s a very safe place at all.
I’ll always remember and cherish the tales of tomfoolery I have amassed in the short time I did play on this server, and I had fun with each and every person I played with. Before I go for good I want to just say i’m truly sorry to everyone I’ve upset and hurt with my actions, whether it be the things I said or me annoying people asking around for info (I will not lie, I have a problem where I feel the need to get responses/verification multiple times or from multiple people), and if any admin who has contact with them sees this, please tell Virvatuli I’m truly sorry about being such an ass, I’m not a bigoted or hateful person, just an impressionable foul mouthed idiot who doesn’t think before he acts.
I’ll be well and truly leaving this time, you folks will never see or hear from me again (unless any of you go to /tg/ station, there’s a microscopically slim chance I might be there)
Thank you for all the memories
And for the last time
Thank you for your time