Complaint I dont think captain bravo is handling my ban well.

[ZeWaka]

Hello, I'm the admin you decided to PM a suicide threat to.
Emotional manipulation, especially of that degree, is not OK whatsoever, and therefore you aren't welcome here currently. There's a line, and you pole-vaulted over it.

Wait a handful of years or so before coming back with a really good apology.

Here's some advice (from a friend of mine) to perhaps help with self-improvement until then:

your mistakes don't define you; you are more than the sum of your mistakes
step 1: own it. admit you made a mistake
step 2: fix the mistake if possible, get help from someone who can help
step 3: apologize
step 4: think about how the mistake happened
step 5: try and correct the root cause so it doesn't happen again
step 6. share the new knowledge you have so other people can avoid the same mistakes
growing up is a never ending series of mistakes
if you learn from your mistakes then at least you're always headed in the right direction