Luca's Mentor Application !

[LuciliusMothboy]

teaching is important. attitude matters too. I value people being welcoming and approachable as mentors.

in no uncertain and literal terms (as literal as you can get with a game, I suppose?) you have walked into a department, physically pushed me out of the way to get to someone behind me that you had over-arching relationship with and wanted to talk to, more than once. in one case you asked why I was hanging around you and friend in med even though...I was a doctor working medbay. you've taken over my job from me in genetics when things were moving too slowly for your liking.

i do not doubt sincerity of passion for the game and experiences had during game, but i believe it only has extended to a few and not many, inclusive of me.

I wasn't initially sure whether to respond to this or not, but after taking time to process the feedback, I have decided I probably should.

I have very poor memory, and I don't want to accidentally state inaccurate information. I don't remember the last thing you're talking about regarding Genetics and am not sure what it's referring to, likely there was some kind of miscommunication or I didn't realize what I was doing was wrong at the time, I'm sorry for not remembering it, and I apologize for the behavior as well.

The second instance I remember, although I don't recall the exact context, just the way I had acted being rude and inappropriate. It unfortunately didn't occur to me until later, and when it did I genuinely felt really bad about it. It was poor practice, and I understand it must have been very upsetting, I really hope you ahelped that one. I wasn't sure until you told me who exactly had been the victim of that action, but now that I do and have the chance to speak to you directly, I am very, very sorry. And I mean that. I've kept this mistake in my mind for a while as an example of how NOT to act around people I don't recognize and have made a promise  to myself to not repeat that sort of behavior. 

As for the first, while I don't remember specific instances, I don't doubt it happened. Again, I apologize. I recognized recently, I think a week or two ago, that I was getting a bit too stuck in a small group, I started trying my best to branch out more. I've been playing several different servers since, and trying to interact with new players or characters I haven't met yet, and I've also been trying to at least offer advice to newer players. I realized at some point I had developed a bad behavior, and have been genuinely trying my best to correct it. It's not easy, bad habits die hard, but I think I'm getting better about it. And since I've started trying to improve, I've been slowly getting into a better spot mentally speaking, and I'm having more fun with the game now. Working on bettering stuff like this is both healthier for others and for me as well.

All in all, I apologize for all of the bad experiences you had with me in the past. I promise I'm trying to be better, and I have taken these words to heart as well. I hope we can RP or talk in the future, and that it'll be a more fun experience for the both of us !