Should I leave Goonstation?

[Ed Venture]

Long post

When I name drop someone I have good times with it's not to hide behind them it's to show someone has noticed I've made changes to my attitude which I feel go unnoticed by many.

I feel it's important to criticize what you love or nothing really changes. I've never demanded something to be changed cause I did not like it, I've always had various reasons to why something should be changed. Sometimes I feel coders have a hard time hearing their change effected the game in a bad way. While understandable this can get frustrating from a player's point of view even more so when months pass and mass amount of players say a change effects the game in a bad way and we just get silence as a response most of the time (mainly in the past after the pull nerf thread this has finally changed and I am grateful for it).

My Number one goal in this community for the longest time has been to get admins to be more transparent with their changes and future plans. This seems to be finally achieved but has left me jaded when I really should be happy. I disagree that I am a constant Debbie downer on here. I have my moment but 2016 to Now has been rather positive till I was threaten with a Ban.

I made that post to Wonk out of Frustration as I have been talking about these issues with Security since May-July 2017 and people told me it was because of my playstyle and nothing else and this was said without them playing with me or watching me as a HoS, so that post was made as I felt the issues with security have been ignored for awhile now. After that post I saw numerous changes to Security that made me feel quite foolish. I've apologized to Wonk many times since last month as I yelled at a person over frustration with a topic.

The only times I've felt ignored by admins in games is when players are clearly breaking the rules when messing with security players, I adminhelp it, I see a admin respond and the people breaking the rules keep doing the same thing round after round. Can you blame me for feeling ignored? After that experience I lost some faith in adminhelping and stopped playing the game till recently. EDIT: Does not help that I feel I have to adminhelp before killing shit players. I agree with alot of people that security should have more leeway with lethal force.

I'm thankful for your post Mordent and it has some good advice that I agree with and plan to follow. A break from the fourms is needed, I agree. I only made this thread after a talk with Wonk and mainly wanted to hear from the community if I am as awful as I am told I am. Once this thread runs it's course I plan to not post for four to six months or posting very rarely.